the shock...

on sunday i was hanging out with my friend nadine,
at the same café as the night before.

when i went back, my aunt and uncle were there.
grandma invited us all on pizza and beer.
i drank too much.
i went upstairs to my room and checked my mobile phone.
1 unanswered call: chris...

totally confused i called lena...
i was angry about that call...
i had tried once again to forget him...

still totally drunk i called back...
he answered in a weak voice:
i'm hospitalized.
i was in a car accident yesterday.
i can't talk anymore.
gonna call you tomorrow...

i called lena again...
crying, crying, crying...
i was so confused (my head was clear again):
why did he call ME after the accident?
that night i couldn't go to sleep.
i kept on crying,
head hurt,
heart hurt,
couldn't sleep,
tried to call our friend tobi (we wanted to phone on sat or sun, i wasn't able to reach him, thought he was in that very car as well!),
finally i fell asleep,
waking up each hour,
the pain was getting worse,
my neck started to pain...

on monday i went to work as usual.
i must have given my colleagues a shock...
got things like:
your eyes look bad.
you look so pale...
you look like the dead...
go home!
even my boss approached me: are you alright?
i only survived that day due to pain killers...
he didn't call...
luckily tobi answered my sms: saying he wasn't involved. thanks God!