the sweetness of hello - the bitterness of goodbye
because the fireworks were still going on, it was easy to find a free place, there was just one italian guy sitting, but soon afterwards a group of 4 guys (erik, sebastian, tobias and christopher) came to sit with us. they were all our age. the italian guys are so crazy~ it's so much fun watching them.
standing up, singing or better yelling their national anthem. i think it's amazing~ drinking combines. even though there often were language barriers, everyone got along with the people sitting next to them. or some (mostly italians) even came over without knowing us, drinking with us, wishing us a good new year. that feeling was awesome... we soon found ourselves talking to the german guys. anika ordered another round of beer for us. 
(these would soon explain my downfall!) it was so nice~ that they wanted to invite us on liquor, but too bad, it was too late, we had to leave a little later. it was already past 2 am. we 6 headed towards sausalitos.
awww~ i remember the three of them made fun of sebastian. when anika and i sat down, there were two glasses of beer standing in front of us, but not ours. the 4 wanted to cheer with us and we said: eeh no thanks, that's not our beer. sebastian gave the glasses to a waiter and she was about to walk away, without taking our order so we shouted: stop! get her back! sebastian jumped up and got us the glasses of beer back =) when he realized his mistake he said: i get you girls new beer. he was away for a long time, returning without beer... he hadn't find a waiter... the boys were laughing and mocking again, the waiter stood behind him. and when we cheered the beer landed on his sleeves. aww i felt really sorry for him, making himself a fool. he must have felt so embarrassed. i found myself chatting to christopher, while anika talked to tobias.
it was never that easy for me to talk to a boy. i had always been nervous about talking to males and never felt comfortable talking to them (didn't know what to say, and he just bubbling sh*t), just like the day before with that man. but the way christopher talked and what he said made me feel relaxed and comfortable. i think anika felt the same with tobias. when we headed to sausalitos it was totally loaded and christopher told us to wait a moment. we were lucky, they let us in. erik and sebastian vanished, anika, tobias, christopher and me stood together. i didn't want to drink anything, while anika was invited on beer by tobias (she drank 3 more beer than me in the end!! woar~) i rejected all alocohol. i felt sick, had felt dizzy before, but when i had to get up and walk it turned to a sick feeling. sausalitos was amazing that night! there were pretty girls (staff) dancing on the bar. when tobias just wanted to take his beer off the bar, one girl hit it by accident with her shoes and it hit the floor. the loud music, the dancing... it all made me such much dizzier and suddenly i felt i had to leave immediately. shouting over to anika: i can't anymore. i'm outside for a while. i was storming outside and was even not able to run around the corner. it came all out TT.TT i felt so embarrassed, i wanted to dug a hole and hide from the rest of the world. i didn't even have tissues with me >.< i felt so miserable, walking a little further and sat down on. after a short while someone appeared, it was christopher. he was worried about me, and it sounded as if he was a little angry, that i was outside all by myself. i was even more embarrassed that he saw me in such a state and insisted he should go in, that it was too cold for him to stand there in t-shirt. he didn't go in, persistant to stay by my side. then i told him i felt embarrassed and he comforted me, i shouldn't be. he hugged me and carrassed me. i told him, i felt alone so much safer here in munich than in my hometown FD, even though it's so much smaller. he still objected. i couldn't be alone: a boy might get punched up. but for a girl... everything is worse if a man approaches and she gets touched by him. when then talked about different things and he praised me: you can still talk so seriously when you're this bad drunk!
even though he only knew me for 2,5 hours at that time, he already judged me pretty well when we talked about other stuff. it was no problem at all talking to him and we always had a topic. he then wanted me to get up, because the stone was cold, but i couldn't move, so i said no and he answered: i don't want you to catch a cold and it's too windy here as well. he then dragged me around the corner, where it at least wasn't windy anymore. after a while we decided to go inside again. i told anika i wanted to wash up and vanished to the restroom. when i was back again, christopher was missing. but i didn't dare to ask erik and sebastian about his whereabouts, thinking, i wouldn't be interested in talking to them. he then appeared again, asking where i've been? me: restroom. he: really? i waited for you downstairs all the time, even shouting inside! i felt so bad for him. but i have to tell, i felt so much better afterwards. anika and tobi were already dancing, i was so shy about it. i never danced with a boy before, so i told him i don't know how to move. that moment he took the lead. i wonder if i embarrassed myself. i didn't care. i felt so warm and comfortable dancing with him. i never felt closer to a boy. time flew by so quickly. we danced non-stop until the bar closed at 5.10am. in the end, we didn't let go of each other anymore. we both had put the arms around the other one, cheeks pressed at another. it all felt so right. and i guess my feelings don't lie. if i felt uncomfortable, it wouldn't have been alright, right? i actually always thought: i do not even want to kiss on the first date, i only want to kiss the man i love. but there were moments, i wished him to kiss me. that was when the tops of our noses touched for seconds. his lips were so near. but i didn't dare to make that first move. and he didn't either. only when the bar closed did i realize that erik and sebastian had already left. christopher then suggested to take us home. what a gentleman! that's seldom! while walking he asked for my mobile phone number. while walking he put his arm around me and i put mine around him. i felt so happy. we have have looked like a couple. he took us to the subway station and there had already been a subway. we stood directly in front of it and he asked: you still get that one? i responded: i don't know. i guess not... he then tried to open the door and really, the doors were already locked. the bad thing... the next subway arrived one minute later. i didn't realize it, only when it was standing in front again. christopher hugged me, and gave me a farewell-kiss on the cheeks, like french people do: left-right-left. then i wished tobi farewell, he did the same. at that moment, the doors already shut and christopher jumped between the doors, so they would open again. so i passed him once more, and we kissed each other once more on the cheeks. soon after we arrived at our hotel room, my phone rang. it was christopher making sure, if we arrived well and wished me a good night. the gentleman again! i felt such happiness.
the next day the 6 of us left munich. anika and me by bus, the rest by car...
standing up, singing or better yelling their national anthem. i think it's amazing~ drinking combines. even though there often were language barriers, everyone got along with the people sitting next to them. or some (mostly italians) even came over without knowing us, drinking with us, wishing us a good new year. that feeling was awesome... we soon found ourselves talking to the german guys. anika ordered another round of beer for us. 
(these would soon explain my downfall!) it was so nice~ that they wanted to invite us on liquor, but too bad, it was too late, we had to leave a little later. it was already past 2 am. we 6 headed towards sausalitos. awww~ i remember the three of them made fun of sebastian. when anika and i sat down, there were two glasses of beer standing in front of us, but not ours. the 4 wanted to cheer with us and we said: eeh no thanks, that's not our beer. sebastian gave the glasses to a waiter and she was about to walk away, without taking our order so we shouted: stop! get her back! sebastian jumped up and got us the glasses of beer back =) when he realized his mistake he said: i get you girls new beer. he was away for a long time, returning without beer... he hadn't find a waiter... the boys were laughing and mocking again, the waiter stood behind him. and when we cheered the beer landed on his sleeves. aww i felt really sorry for him, making himself a fool. he must have felt so embarrassed. i found myself chatting to christopher, while anika talked to tobias.
it was never that easy for me to talk to a boy. i had always been nervous about talking to males and never felt comfortable talking to them (didn't know what to say, and he just bubbling sh*t), just like the day before with that man. but the way christopher talked and what he said made me feel relaxed and comfortable. i think anika felt the same with tobias. when we headed to sausalitos it was totally loaded and christopher told us to wait a moment. we were lucky, they let us in. erik and sebastian vanished, anika, tobias, christopher and me stood together. i didn't want to drink anything, while anika was invited on beer by tobias (she drank 3 more beer than me in the end!! woar~) i rejected all alocohol. i felt sick, had felt dizzy before, but when i had to get up and walk it turned to a sick feeling. sausalitos was amazing that night! there were pretty girls (staff) dancing on the bar. when tobias just wanted to take his beer off the bar, one girl hit it by accident with her shoes and it hit the floor. the loud music, the dancing... it all made me such much dizzier and suddenly i felt i had to leave immediately. shouting over to anika: i can't anymore. i'm outside for a while. i was storming outside and was even not able to run around the corner. it came all out TT.TT i felt so embarrassed, i wanted to dug a hole and hide from the rest of the world. i didn't even have tissues with me >.< i felt so miserable, walking a little further and sat down on. after a short while someone appeared, it was christopher. he was worried about me, and it sounded as if he was a little angry, that i was outside all by myself. i was even more embarrassed that he saw me in such a state and insisted he should go in, that it was too cold for him to stand there in t-shirt. he didn't go in, persistant to stay by my side. then i told him i felt embarrassed and he comforted me, i shouldn't be. he hugged me and carrassed me. i told him, i felt alone so much safer here in munich than in my hometown FD, even though it's so much smaller. he still objected. i couldn't be alone: a boy might get punched up. but for a girl... everything is worse if a man approaches and she gets touched by him. when then talked about different things and he praised me: you can still talk so seriously when you're this bad drunk!
even though he only knew me for 2,5 hours at that time, he already judged me pretty well when we talked about other stuff. it was no problem at all talking to him and we always had a topic. he then wanted me to get up, because the stone was cold, but i couldn't move, so i said no and he answered: i don't want you to catch a cold and it's too windy here as well. he then dragged me around the corner, where it at least wasn't windy anymore. after a while we decided to go inside again. i told anika i wanted to wash up and vanished to the restroom. when i was back again, christopher was missing. but i didn't dare to ask erik and sebastian about his whereabouts, thinking, i wouldn't be interested in talking to them. he then appeared again, asking where i've been? me: restroom. he: really? i waited for you downstairs all the time, even shouting inside! i felt so bad for him. but i have to tell, i felt so much better afterwards. anika and tobi were already dancing, i was so shy about it. i never danced with a boy before, so i told him i don't know how to move. that moment he took the lead. i wonder if i embarrassed myself. i didn't care. i felt so warm and comfortable dancing with him. i never felt closer to a boy. time flew by so quickly. we danced non-stop until the bar closed at 5.10am. in the end, we didn't let go of each other anymore. we both had put the arms around the other one, cheeks pressed at another. it all felt so right. and i guess my feelings don't lie. if i felt uncomfortable, it wouldn't have been alright, right? i actually always thought: i do not even want to kiss on the first date, i only want to kiss the man i love. but there were moments, i wished him to kiss me. that was when the tops of our noses touched for seconds. his lips were so near. but i didn't dare to make that first move. and he didn't either. only when the bar closed did i realize that erik and sebastian had already left. christopher then suggested to take us home. what a gentleman! that's seldom! while walking he asked for my mobile phone number. while walking he put his arm around me and i put mine around him. i felt so happy. we have have looked like a couple. he took us to the subway station and there had already been a subway. we stood directly in front of it and he asked: you still get that one? i responded: i don't know. i guess not... he then tried to open the door and really, the doors were already locked. the bad thing... the next subway arrived one minute later. i didn't realize it, only when it was standing in front again. christopher hugged me, and gave me a farewell-kiss on the cheeks, like french people do: left-right-left. then i wished tobi farewell, he did the same. at that moment, the doors already shut and christopher jumped between the doors, so they would open again. so i passed him once more, and we kissed each other once more on the cheeks. soon after we arrived at our hotel room, my phone rang. it was christopher making sure, if we arrived well and wished me a good night. the gentleman again! i felt such happiness.
the next day the 6 of us left munich. anika and me by bus, the rest by car...
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