my CONFESSION

tuesday morning at 6.30 i finally talked to tobi on the phone...
asking for the address of the hospital chris was staying in...

i had decided to visit him on thursday

tobi didn't know, if he was still hospitalized or already at home.

in the evening chris finally called.
he got home that day, finally had his cell again.
they took it away from him.
he wasn't allowed to phone, to read, to wash up, ...
and still... he called me!

he said he would have been very happy, if i had visited him on thursday,
but due to the pain and other issues, he suggested we should meet up when he was better, so we could both enjoy our togetherness.

even though i knew he was in pain right now... i couldn't hold back...
i confessed my feeling to him...
that i liked him a lot...
that i hoped we'd have a chance as WE...
this was my first confession ever....
thinking about it, i had always been so nervous...
but i was quite calm talking to chris...
the way he reacted was fabulous.
he made me feel comfortable, asked me a lot of things...

it's not decided yet, what will happen to US...
we'll see what happens when we meet again...

his pain was getting worse... so he suggested to talk again the other day...