Apologies...

lately there have been so many people i hurt. i don't know why i do this. i just can't help it. i feel like trash right now... these feelings inside of me... i don't want to show myself to the public, just hide from everyone i love and know. just while shopping i realized how pathetic i got. i want to go back to those happy days from a while ago. even though i have my freedom right now, i can't enjoy it. i don't want to see myself either. from this evening on, i have to go through a major change! will i have gained enough strength to go out and meet friends on monday again?

entschuldigung Lena: it's always you who contacts me first. even though i want to be the first who calls you

gomen Rie: even though you'd been to germany for 2 months, i only met you once.

miyah nae Rara: i'm a bad friend, ain't i. not being able to give you any comfort or happiness. i'm truly sorry you have to face so many obstacles in your young life

dui bu qi M: have we lost touch? i'm worried about you. i miss you my lovely M

miyah nae Jin: i know it takes me ages to response your messages.

entschuldigung Anika: it must have been awkward to go shopping with me... i hardly talked...

entschuldigung Mailin & Naddy: i'm a bad auntie and sis for not having visted you the whole week. we're gonna see each other tomorrow <333 Mailin i miss you like hell TT.TT

entschuldigung granny: i know i'm a bad granddaughter, but i don't have the power yet to change it. please give me some more time... you're the one i'm most sorry for. i love you!

and i feel so sorry for my colleague and friend Anne: hope you feel better. even though all these unpleasant things happen (especially the car accident) i truly hope you have the strength to pull through and stay with me. i'd feel so lonely without you. please get well soon <3