dramafanatic = dramatic

last night i finally finished One Fine Day. i was up much too long and had problems to concentrate at work >.< the drama was nice. gosh~ i would have immediately chosen the team manager, even though he hadn't been that well-off. felt so sorry for him. episode 15 gives me the shivers.
will i ever be such a happy girl?
currently i doubt it...

my mood is pretty bad again. i feel so lost and lonely. like there's no one in this world who truly cares about me. all i wanted to do was getting home from work to get drunk =( i wish i had soju, but all i got was becks chilled-orange

watching all these dramas and the hardships the main characters have to go through, in the end they are together with their loved ones.
do i have to feel such pain to be happy some day?

it's been exactly one year when university first started and now, looking back to that time and place. my life is upside-down. everything has changed... myself, my environment.
i miss my friends from uni a lot. i guess uni-time has been my happiest time...

but actually i love the work i do, just that i feel lonelier than ever in my life.
i feel like there's so much love i could give. and i want to give my love to someone special, but i don't seem to find that person.

there's been a long long time i've not been able to love someone. too afraid i get hurt again. i was so shy about everything, but now the time has come i want to dare. i want to give it all.
but the weird thing is, i'm not looking forward to meet someone foreign. i wish i would already have someone by my side whom i know for months, whom i can show my happy and sad face.
not just be the happy girl you should be on the first dates... just be myself and be comfortable with it.

i experienced a little happiness today, when i got off from work and this car was driving by, a young man was sitting in it, and while driving past, he was still looking at me. at this instant i felt happiness, that someone might have seen beauty inside of me =)

i thought it was just like in LOST on monday evening, when sun and jin first met. i felt it would have been similar if we had met on the street face to face.