boys are too complicated for me...

and why am i to be confronted with three at the same time???????

that's really weird!

this week chris (the ex) had tried to call me.
i thought he dialled my number by accident so i didn't answer my phone.
the next day during work he tried again, that time i couldn't reach my phone in time.
i sent him a sms: saw your calls, anything special?
he: noo, just tried to reach you several times and i wondered if you had a new number

darn~ i was so furious. why would he try to contact me after 2 months of silence?
so i wrote: after all this time you try to phone me. explain it to me, why? because i simply don't understand!

he must have been pissed: okay, i won't call anymore. i knew, you wouldn't understand and accept my job. i tried to reach you, but i was busy with work. greetings, chris

i got even more pissed.
it was at work. i slammed my phone on the desk and ran off to the ladies room to cry my eyes out. he made me the scapegoat for what happened!!!!!!!
i was so out of mind that i even smoked during break (gosh, that's real bad!).

my colleague tried to comfort me and bought me my fav. ice-cream.
as we sat outside together my boss was looking at us from afar and talking to another person.
my colleague was afraid that soon there'd be rumours about us.
why aren't a woman and a man allowed to get along like we do?
why do people have to think, there's something going on, if both get along?
why do people have to trash the good intentions of others?
i don't understand this kind of behaviour.
it's making me frustrated!

and last but not least, the guy with the bad past.
even though he did something bad last week, something i'd be ashamed of,
i'm still attracted to him.
and on thursday (my last day at that department) he was like a gentleman.
you know, he usually screams and yells and is impolite.
in the morning he gave me a little bow, a little smile and a hello~
in the afternoon he even let me out through the door first.
i was so happy i left a final message on his bike:
don't get stressed over minor things and keep your smile.
i knew it was a pretty one.

too bad i didn't see his reaction to that. =(